don't let october pass me by...

i know, someone should beat me with a stick, really hard. i promised to be here more often but i have been been scattered. no other word comes close to describing everything going on.

• i am still finishing up the evil evil main project. once i finish, i get a check with the statue of liberty on it!
• i am working on finalizing financing for a new house in the town i moved from 4 years ago. the only problem is that while i am trying to get financing in place, the house i had my eye on SELLS! so i have to find another home. i have found one that has everything i want: 3 br/2ba, hardwood/tile/carpet in the two small bedrooms only, fenced yard, level lot and a roof line where i could easily have a covered porch added to the back concrete pad. i am purposely not pulling it up on the internet, so the ethereal evil spirits won't see how excited i am about it.
• my mom spent a week here and i can see how much her condition has deteriorated. she was being very argumentative about every little detail and very demanding about things that were unimportant. it's time for my sister to begin thinking about putting her in a home. my sister is being resistant because she claims to need the money for her household to function. whatever.

i have upset about stuff i see in the news, more so than ever before. baby lisa being taken in the night. the bronx baby who overdosed because it was given a bottle of pills to use as a rattle. the 9 year old who was driving her drunken father home. i think i am going through some hormone thing.

i am going out to dinner with my husband, my son, his wife, her mother and father, and her cousin i have a school girl crush on. yeah, a crush. on a big old teddy of a guy who is 6 years younger than me and just as friendly as can be. i hate to admit it, 46 year old women shouldn't have crushes on younger men. but i do. we are celebrating the birthdays of my daughter-in-law and the cousin. if i give him a birthday smooch, i guess i'll have to keep my tongue to myself. haha. i'm not taking any chances, i got him a birthday card and a starbucks card. i'm keeping my hands to myself.

46 year old women also shouldn't spend hours coloring in "hello kitty" coloring books. but i do.

maybe one day i will grow up and be responsible.

i hope not.